Getting ready for baby

We are now a little over 20 weeks and we're definitely feeling like we're in the home stretch. We've been rearranging the house to accommodate a new baby. Ruark and baby #2 will be sharing a room together which will be really nice to not have my office moved downstairs until baby #3 gets here.

This pregnancy has been really hard, with the allergic reaction closing off my windpipe and the constant nausea and sickness and now contractions it feels never ending. At the Doctor's office we found out I have a type of bacterial infection that could cause premature labor and even a second trimester miscarriage. So I was put on an antibiotic and we were hoping it would clear up. Unfortunately it's gotten worse, the contractions are getting stronger and stronger and are near constant right now. I go in tomorrow for more testing to see what we can do to get it a little more under control.

As you can tell I'm in a little denial that his baby is really a boy, what with the ultrasound tech not being sure, the umbilical cord between the legs and covering the little bum with his little feet it was really hard to see what's really going on. Which is why we got, "it mysteriously looks like a boy" and "I think it's a boy". We're planning for a boy and a girl, we're going to wait until the delivery room to see if we get a surprise.

It's a boy?

Yesterday at our ultrasound we never really got a definitive YES it's a boy! Our ultrasound tech kept saying "it looks mysteriously like a boy". What does that even mean?! 8 times out of ten there was nothing there but once or twice we think we saw something. The ultrasound tech is pretty sure, however I am not. But we are moving forward with the idea of bringing another boy home. When they told me during the ultrasound, I must admit I started crying. Silent tears fell, until we were done. Then they put me in the lobby to wait for the doctor. I started sobbing when I called my mom. It got even harder when everyone kept staring at me like I just found out my baby had two heads. They kept asking what was wrong and if I was okay. I just really wanted to be alone to process.

When the nurses took me back they were really concerned about me too. The ultrasound tech came out and saw me still crying and told me that it's a healthy boy and that the day before there was a baby that didn't have an arm. I cried even harder feeling like a terrible mother. Everyone kept saying "she's just disappointed it's a boy" which really made the tears fall harder. What a horrible thing to say that I'm disappointed that it's a boy! I was a mess.

Slowly I've pulled myself out of all the tears and I am so excited to have this baby boy! His name will be Rhett, and I can't wait to have a little buddy for Ruark! I've already started planning their room and Halloween outfits. What an amazing experience to have TWO healthy boys!

A little about baby Rhett. He is a mover! For goodness sakes his amniotic fluid is full of bubbles because he moves so much. I've never even heard of that, the ultrasound tech was surprised. He is a thumb-sucker! Wow, is he ever stubborn! No matter what they did he refused to move out of his spot of legs crossed over his head. Which is what made it so hard to see that he is a boy. A boy after my own heart! I can't believe I'm going to have TWO babies to hold and love soon.

We are so lucky, Ruark already walks around saying "Rhett, Rhett". I can't wait to see these boys grow together.

Ultrasound TODAY!

In ONE HOUR we have our appointment for our ultrasound to see if it's a boy or girl! I am so excited to see him or her moving around. I feel so thankful to be pregnant again and be having my August baby! I thought I'd post a picture of me this morning, my belly seems so small this morning! I have so many hopes and dreams for this sweet baby. Most on my mind is will there be more wrestling tournaments or ballet recitals? Will there be trucks or dolls, blue or pink? I can't wait to know what we're having but I'm more excited to have another baby in my arms again! We're halfway there and we couldn't be more excited!